Hahah I THOUGHT it was something to celebrate!

Well I have been working pretty much NON-FUCKING-STOP since I posted last. I did get a day off yesterday on Xmas...not because they were gracious enough to give it to me off....but because I took that shit! These people are out of thier fucking minds. The owner wanted me to bring my KIDS to the shop and put them to bed upstairs (where all of the BREAKABLE wedding stuff is kept mind you) and I told her she had lost her fucking mind. I worked about 75 hours just last week. That means I got about 25 hours of overtime. The owner offered me a position as a manager, but I don't think that I want it...AT ALL! That would require me quitting my other job and I just don't think that I am prepared to do that. I love my other job and I have NO intentions of leaving. She asked me to try it out for 2 weeks to see if she likes me as mgr and if I like being mgr and IF I wanted to take it, then I would put in my 2 week notice then, but after this holiday and and seeing just how fucked up this place is....FUCK THAT! The lady that hired me...has now quit so at the moment, I'm the ONLY designer that they have. It's a lot of bullshit to deal with as it is, but to have to do that AND be a manager too....FUCK NO! She isn't willing to pay me enough to do that.
I did actually try to do a little bit of knitting last night and I started a new project. I still have to make Josh's dad's scarf, but I started Scleaves last night. At the rate that i have been knitting, I don't know WHEN that will ever get done, but at least I've got something going right? :) I need something to keep my sanity right now with all of the fucked up shit that has been going on at home. Well I'm exhausted and I have some pics that I need to post, but don't really have the energy to do that I'll write more later though!
Much Love,
Amber

Something to celebrate :)

Ok so with everything else in my life basically in the shitter lately, I honestly didn't think that I would have ANY good news to post on this blog now, or anytime soon. Well, believe it or not, I was wrong. I know, I know I can't believe it either (that I was wrong, that is :) ) Anyhow, today I went out looking for a job and I turned in my application at Hobby Lobby....which would have been a wonderful job and I would have been happier than hell if I had actually gotten it, but I didn't even have a chance to call the guy that is in charge of the hiring. I also got an application for a waitressing job, which also would have been great. It wouldn't have excited me nearly as much as a job at Hobby Lobby, but any extra money right now is something I would gladly welcome...and then I went to Starbucks...no luck there. We were about to go back home, but I told Josh to go ahead and swing me by a florist that I heard was hiring and just give it a chance. I didn't even get to fill out an application. When I told them that I was an experienced designer they were falling all over themselves trying to talk to me. I sat and waited for about 10 minutes as the phone rang off of the hook and customers came in. I finally was able to talk to the manager and she asked me about my work experience, availability, and all that other good stuff. She asked me what I was making at my other job and then she told me to come in tomorrow at 9am. I asked her if this was for another interview or what and she said "Oh no sweetie, I want you to start first thing in the morning. I can most likely get you what you are making now and if not you'll get that in a month, but I want you to start tomorrow!" She told me that I would be getting so many hours here that I'll be SICK of working there!!! I didn't even have to fill out an application with them. Not only that, but I will still be able to keep my other job, which is excellent since I have NO plans of giving that up anytime soon. Most florists will not hire you if you work for another shop because they are very competitive with prices and things like that, but they have no problem with me working there. I'm glad because it sucks when you have to hide things like that. It just complicates things and the LAST thing that I need are more complications in my life right now. Either way, I'll be starting my new job tomorrow and I really hope that I like it there. It seems like it's pretty laid back there, but who knows really until I actually start. I know that this will be good for me right now because it's going to help take my mind off of all of the craziness and drama that is going on. Josh was so happy for me when I told him that I got the job. This will make it so that he will not have to work much and will be able to get himself taken care of and won't have to work while he's feeling so damn shitty. I don't mind taking on all of the responsibilities of the house right now...as long as everything chills out and Josh is able to get better and go to the doctors thwn he needs to.
Well, other than that I don't really have any news other than that. I'm still working on my new basketweave and I'm definatly gonna have to bust ass on that sicne i"m gonna be working so much now. I'll probably be working overtime so that won't leave much time to do my knitting. I'll let everyone know how my first day of work goes tomorrow. Much love to all of you!
Amber

YAY!!!!!

Ok so I finally finished my basketweave scarf after working on it for forever it seems. That has a lot to do with the fact that i haven't really been up to knitting anything, much less something that i have to carry a pattern around with me anytime that I feel like making any progress on it. Either way, it's done and over with and it turned out more beautiful than I could have imagined. Here is the finished product..

Yeah, I know, I'm a dumbass and I didn't get a finished shot of it before I wrapped up nice and pretty today. It's all good because I will be able to get a picture of it when I give it to Josh's mom. I promise that I will post it then. I started the second scarf in my "series" today. I am doing another basketweave scarf, but it's a different pattern. A much less complex one that is for Josh's dad. I'm not entirely sure that he will even WEAR a scarf, but I think that he'd at least wear it just because I made it for him. We'll see I guess. I don't think that you are able to see the stitch pattern in this pictures, but it's basically K4, P4 for four rows and then P4, K4...very simple. I'm hoping that I'll be able to knock it out pretty quickly. I did get some very pretty yarn yesterday from good 'ol Hobby Lobby and i can't wait to make something purdy with it. I also finally got some larger DPN's that I've been in desperate need of. On that same trip, I also went to the library and got a book called Wrap Style and it's a bunch of patterns for wraps, shawls, ponchos, capes and shrugs. I've been really itching to make a shrug lately but everything in this book seems a little difficult. I might need some direction from another fellow knitter before I can tackle what I'm wanting to try. I do know that I need something to take my mind away from all of the fucked up shit going on in my life...so what better to do that, than a new thing to knit. Might as well right!

Well, I've got some awesome news! I've lost about 18lbs.! I've got a pair of jeans that I've loved for ever, but they have been too tight lately to wear comfortably...as in, I have to lay down to get them buttoned and I have to break a rib to get them zipped. Well, I tried them on a few days ago and I don't have to lay down at all to get them buttoned. They actually fit GOOD! If that wasn't good enough, I went into work this morning, and Gina, my co-worker, any my new favorite person, said to me "GOD Amber, You've lost some weight haven't you!!!" Boy, does SHE know how to make someone's day or what? Haha!! I have totally cut out soda and I've been working out and cutting back on calories BIG time. It's obviously working so I'm not about to quit doing it now. Speaking of calories, dinner is about done so I"m gonna go, but I promise that I will start posting a lot more frequently than I have been. It will probably do me some good anyways. It's a lot better than sitting around the house just going nuts staring at the walls. Much love to everyone!

Amber

Life just keeps taking a dump on me

So, I'm like thisclose to shoving my knitting needles into SOMEONE'S throat. Nobody in particular....but damn it would relieve a lot of stress I'm sure. Well, I'm not EVEN gonna lie...I can definatly think of someone that would make that fantasy so much lovelier, but ya know...that whole prison thing just isn't quite as appealing. So I had my trip all set and planned...tickets were already being bought for me to hop on the bus and go to Kansas. Yes, people actually voluntarily go there. But my best friend that I haven't seen in way too many years is going to be there for Xmas to visit her family and Josh wanted to do something sweet for me and get me out there to see my girl. Well, I've already taken off of work and I'm taking care of all necessary crap that I have to do and then I find out that Greyhound has blackout dates that jack thier prices up to twice as much. My ticket there would only be $45, but instead of buying a roundtrip which would cost $186 I would have to buy two one way tickets and even THAT would cost $141. Well the person that was going to buy them for me wasn't going to have the extra $50 that we weren't expecting to pay...so i was able to come up with the $50 and then they decided that they weren't going to do it afterall. Sooooo, I'm all depressed and then Josh tells me that it still *might* happen possibly. So I have to sit here and stress about this until I find out for sure.....again! With everything else fucked up that is going on in my life right now...I REALLY need this trip and if it doesn't happen I think I'm probably gonna go postal on someone. So I will find out HOPEFULLY tomorrow if it's going to happen.
In the meantime, I've been doing my knitting OF COURSE. My loom knitting is coming along lovely. I actually kinda like it believe it or not. But at least I have one less thing that i HAVE to make now....Well, I'm going to go...hopefully to watch a movie with Josh if he doesn't fall asleep on me like he ALWAYS does. I wanna watch Enchanted that shit looks funny. Well I'll post tomorrow telling the final verdict on my trip and i'll post some pics of my knitting. Much love and sweet dreams to you all!
Ambz

Ok guys, this post won't be the lovely ray of sunshine that my last post was....I promise! I was just in a shitty mood and I was in the mood to vent. So anyhow, I just got home from my inlaws and we ate lunch and decorated the Xmas tree with the boys. It was nice...the food was good...the boys had fun..and after this, I'm taking a nap.

We had pulled pork sandwiches and they were bangin'. I don't think that there is anything that she cooks that isn't just down right delicious. My morning started REALLY early today. I was woken up by Josh moaning and rocking in pain at about 4:30 am. He's really not doing well, and this was the worst that I have ever seen him. He couldn't describe what exactly he was feeling, but he was all fucked up though. I asked him what I could do to make him feel better and he said "just stay up with me" so that's what I did. I layed here and rubbed his back and tried to get him to relax a little. He sits up and I can tell that he's really frustrated and doesn't really know what to do with himself. Then all of a sudden, he jumps up and starts hauling ass to the kitchen while he projectile vomits all over the floor. I guess that is exactly what his body needed because he felt a lot better afterwards, but he was just drained. I feel SOOOO bad for him when he's like that because there isn't anything that either of us can do to make him feel better. He does have another Dr's appointment coming up this Thursday and hopefully this doc will be slightly less DENSE than the last one and will be able to do SOMETHING to alleviate the symptoms that he's having. He's just steadily getting worse and it's tearing me up.

So anyway, enough about that and how about some knitting talk. So I am still working on Josh's moms scarf and I also started one for Josh's dad in a plain basketweave pattern and another scarf that I'm doing on my knitting loom. I bought a set of those Knifty Knitters and I haven't really messed with them since I bought them several weeks ago so I decided it was time to bust 'em out. For those of you that have never used them, you can knit just about every stitch on them that you can on regular needles. I still don't really know much about them, but the stitch I'm using on this one is super easy and goes a lot quicker than regular knitting does. I'm sure using some of the other stitches and other looms might be a little more difficult, buy so far it's going great. :) Yay!

Well, I had really planned on writing more, but since I started a miracle has happened, and BOTH....yes, I said BOTH of the boys have fallen asleep. So I think that I should take advantage of THAT and take a nap myself. I will try and write more later. Have a lovely day!

Amber